To Aspen, who changed everything... Happy Birthday

Before you were conceived I wanted you
Before you were born I loved you
Before you were an hour old I would die for you
This is the miracle of a mother's love
(-Maureen Hawkins)






The day your daddy saw the positive pregnancy test and shouted for me to come look was the day our whole world changed.

You see, we had a deep ache for a child, and God, in His unfathomable grace, gave us you.

Tears freely flow because I still can't believe we are celebrating the birthday of our big 3 year old. For years I never thought I'd have a child to celebrate birthdays with. And then there was you. Thank God there was you.

I had a pregnancy. I have a birth story. I got to experience the joy of nursing. I experienced the phenomenon of being more tired than I ever have been in my whole life, yet being so completely peaceful in my heart. I know what it's like to be a mommy, because of you.




Midnight moonlight
Shining through the curtain lace
Paints a perfect picture
On your perfect face
My sweet Aspen sleeping in my arms
You are the promise I knew God would keep
You are the gift that makes my world complete

And you'll never know how much I love you
But I'll keep telling you my whole life through
Now I believe in miracles
and you're the reason why
So dream on while I sing you
Aspen's lullaby
(-original by Reba McIntyre)

Baby girl, you will never understand how much your conception and existence has transformed everything we know about ourselves, about each other, about life in general and about the Lord Himself.

We would have waited 100 years for you.


Happy birthday sweetheart.